was awoken by a nightmare.. >.<

very scary... It was that my grandma vision had deteriorated so badly till she cant even see the water from the tap in front of her.. This really traumatised me.. Sometimes i really wonder how to cope without her.. Talking about death, usually is not the one who die that is in pain but those who live on.. the pain is indescribable.. felt like knife on my heart.. make me think alot.. but i am really very scared... haix...

I am a dream abt a guy too.. but its too impossible.. but he's really cute.... Awwwwwwwwww~~~~~ its a girls' thing...


Anyway good news would be going to BKK in Feb next year... hehe... Really looking forward to the trip manx.. first time to BKK.. BKK wait for me!!!!!!